Hosea’s 11th Heaven Day

Today marks 11 years since my little man Hosea Nathan went to heaven. In many ways it feels like a lot of time has past because we have lived so much life in the last 11 years…so much change, so many hardships, and equally as many joys.   But in so many ways, it also feels just like yesterday that I was holding him, changing his diaper, and trying to keep his sisters from smothering him with their kisses.   At times, I still

Dig Deep to Go Up

My son loves to dig in the dirt.   As a matter fact, so do my daughters.   What is the fascination with thinking a hole in the ground? Maybe it’s discovering buried treasures. Maybe it’s the anticipation and mystery of not knowing what you are going to find…so you continue to dig a little deeper and a little deeper to see what lies beneath the next shovel-full of dirt.   While digging a hole in the dirt may evoke childlike curiosity and all of us,

When You’re Stuck, #ResetWithMe

Anytime someone chooses honesty and authenticity it’s risky.  Each of us have different “lenses” due to life experiences and/or faith that we evaluate others through.   Although being authentic and real may feel risky, but it’s far more satisfying and freeing to be “you” and let go of what others think you should be or need to be.   Many of us live under layers of fear, shame, and insecurity, exhausted with trying to cover up the ugly, imperfect parts of ourselves – it’s

The Day the Bottom Fell Out

Have you ever had a day, week, month, or even year where it feels like the “bottom just fell out?”  That’s has been us for the past few weeks.  There have been so many negative things that happened back to back that one begins to scratch their head and wonder – and pray more.   One of our cars (new to us) went to the shop 5 (yes 5) times for the exact same issue. The owner was rather perplexed at why

What to Do When the Bottom Falls Out

We’ve all had those days.   You know, the ones where you feel like “when it rains it pours” or that the “bottom just fell out” or maybe it’s closer to say “all hell has broken lose.”  These days could be described as “the pits” or if you’re overly dramatic like me, you call your husband and lament that it’s been the “worst day of your life” (even though you told him that same thing last week when you found your son

Tears…Are They OK?

Is it ok to cry?   Have you ever asked yourself that?  I have recently been wrestling with this question.  Seven years have passed since I held my son and kissed his tiny, soft head. Today, at 6:28 I could remember every sight, smell, and sound of that tragic moment. The past seven years have been a mixture of some of the darkest hours of my life as well as the brightest.  From anger and depression to joy and triumph and everything

A Healthy Pregnancy: Where Do I Start?

There must be something in the water!  It seems like everyone I know is getting pregnant!  This is such an exciting time, yet it invokes questions and concerns as well. Recently I’ve been asked multiple questions in regards to pregnancy and which vitamins are “safe” to take during that time.  As women, we have an innate desire to protect and to do what is best for our children.  That desire has fueled me and many other

From the Wilderness to the Promised Land

Today marks 6 years since Hosea “graduated” to heaven. We had such a wonderful celebration of his life this year on his birthday in April and wanted his heaven day to be a continuation of that. For anyone who has ever lost someone dear to them I’m sure you know what “marker days” can feel like.   There are certain things that may trigger memories and even the time of day can take you back to that moment in time when everything shifted.