In Remembrance of Little Ones Lost

Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. Remembering can take us down a couple different roads, depending on the healing we’ve allowed to take place in our hearts and where our Hope is anchored. Remembering can take us to a dark place where our hearts, minds, and bodies re-process every detail of that dark day every year, like clock-work. It’s like a movie screen that keeps replaying the same film, one filled with trauma, grief, and details we’d rather forget. Remembering

Deep Needs Hide Behind Smiles

I look at the smiling faces of my little people as I post their pics on a FaceBook, and as their mom, only I know the depth of the joy, and also the struggles in each of them. I look in their eyes and I know…just like only you know your kids or those closest to you. Life is interesting. I think the Lord allows us to simultaneously experience at times the darkest of nights and the highest of heights. This

Hosea’s 11th Heaven Day

Today marks 11 years since my little man Hosea Nathan went to heaven. In many ways it feels like a lot of time has past because we have lived so much life in the last 11 years…so much change, so many hardships, and equally as many joys.   But in so many ways, it also feels just like yesterday that I was holding him, changing his diaper, and trying to keep his sisters from smothering him with their kisses.   At times, I still

Dig Deep to Go Up

My son loves to dig in the dirt.   As a matter fact, so do my daughters.   What is the fascination with thinking a hole in the ground? Maybe it’s discovering buried treasures. Maybe it’s the anticipation and mystery of not knowing what you are going to find…so you continue to dig a little deeper and a little deeper to see what lies beneath the next shovel-full of dirt.   While digging a hole in the dirt may evoke childlike curiosity and all of us,

When You’re Stuck, #ResetWithMe

Anytime someone chooses honesty and authenticity it’s risky.  Each of us have different “lenses” due to life experiences and/or faith that we evaluate others through.   Although being authentic and real may feel risky, but it’s far more satisfying and freeing to be “you” and let go of what others think you should be or need to be.   Many of us live under layers of fear, shame, and insecurity, exhausted with trying to cover up the ugly, imperfect parts of ourselves – it’s

The Day the Bottom Fell Out

Have you ever had a day, week, month, or even year where it feels like the “bottom just fell out?”  That’s has been us for the past few weeks.  There have been so many negative things that happened back to back that one begins to scratch their head and wonder – and pray more.   One of our cars (new to us) went to the shop 5 (yes 5) times for the exact same issue. The owner was rather perplexed at why

What to Do When the Bottom Falls Out

We’ve all had those days.   You know, the ones where you feel like “when it rains it pours” or that the “bottom just fell out” or maybe it’s closer to say “all hell has broken lose.”  These days could be described as “the pits” or if you’re overly dramatic like me, you call your husband and lament that it’s been the “worst day of your life” (even though you told him that same thing last week when you found your son