In the past few years, it has felt like we braced for impact of the wide range of emotions that the day would hold. I’m sure this is perfectly normal. “Marker days” are tough, no matter how healed your heart is. These days just seem to remind us even more of how much we miss Hosea.
However, we are trying a little something different this year. We are going to try to actually celebrate his life and birth. I have not been in a place to celebrate his life until this year. And while celebrating may not be fanfare and blow out parties, I think the Lord has allowed our hearts to heal enough to see that his life is worth celebrating because he is very much alive. God is the God of the living, not the dead. So Hosea is alive today…more alive than you or I even. So today, I will celebrate his life.
It is different when you lose a infant because their birthday is followed so closely by their “Heaven Day.” It has been a hard thing the past 3 years to try to “celebrate” or remember his birthday without it being quickly over-shadowed by the day he passed away (May 6…exactly 4 weeks after he was born). Has anyone else lost a child or loved one that has those two days so close together? I’m wondering how others have dealt with this harsh reality–that birth and death days follow so closely behind each other.
Has anyone out there lost a loved one that has any thoughts on how they spend that special “marker day?” I would love to hear your comments and ideas.
I’m not sure what the day will end up looking like, but for right now, we are making pancakes (a tradition on someone’s birthday) and are headed off to the park or Jump Zone (something we do on the kids’ birthdays as well). Hosea, we celebrate you today!