In Remembrance of Little Ones Lost

Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. Remembering can take us down a couple different roads, depending on the healing we’ve allowed to take place in our hearts and where our Hope is anchored. Remembering can take us to a dark place where our hearts, minds, and bodies re-process every detail of that dark day every year, like clock-work. It’s like a movie screen that keeps replaying the same film, one filled with trauma, grief, and details we’d rather forget. Remembering

Deep Needs Hide Behind Smiles

I look at the smiling faces of my little people as I post their pics on a FaceBook, and as their mom, only I know the depth of the joy, and also the struggles in each of them. I look in their eyes and I know…just like only you know your kids or those closest to you. Life is interesting. I think the Lord allows us to simultaneously experience at times the darkest of nights and the highest of heights. This

Dig Deep to Go Up

My son loves to dig in the dirt.   As a matter fact, so do my daughters.   What is the fascination with thinking a hole in the ground? Maybe it’s discovering buried treasures. Maybe it’s the anticipation and mystery of not knowing what you are going to find…so you continue to dig a little deeper and a little deeper to see what lies beneath the next shovel-full of dirt.   While digging a hole in the dirt may evoke childlike curiosity and all of us,

#ResetWithMe on Negativity

None of us are born more negative or positive than others, while some of us would say we are bent more towards the “glass is half empty” or the “glass is half full” perspective.  Rather, we have all been created in the image of God who is overflowing with Joy and not an ounce of negativity.  (I think I just needed to believe that in order to make me feel better about my negative attitude in the face of my

When You’re Stuck, #ResetWithMe

Anytime someone chooses honesty and authenticity it’s risky.  Each of us have different “lenses” due to life experiences and/or faith that we evaluate others through.   Although being authentic and real may feel risky, but it’s far more satisfying and freeing to be “you” and let go of what others think you should be or need to be.   Many of us live under layers of fear, shame, and insecurity, exhausted with trying to cover up the ugly, imperfect parts of ourselves – it’s

The Day the Bottom Fell Out

Have you ever had a day, week, month, or even year where it feels like the “bottom just fell out?”  That’s has been us for the past few weeks.  There have been so many negative things that happened back to back that one begins to scratch their head and wonder – and pray more.   One of our cars (new to us) went to the shop 5 (yes 5) times for the exact same issue. The owner was rather perplexed at why

What to Do When the Bottom Falls Out

We’ve all had those days.   You know, the ones where you feel like “when it rains it pours” or that the “bottom just fell out” or maybe it’s closer to say “all hell has broken lose.”  These days could be described as “the pits” or if you’re overly dramatic like me, you call your husband and lament that it’s been the “worst day of your life” (even though you told him that same thing last week when you found your son

Tears…Are They OK?

Is it ok to cry?   Have you ever asked yourself that?  I have recently been wrestling with this question.  Seven years have passed since I held my son and kissed his tiny, soft head. Today, at 6:28 I could remember every sight, smell, and sound of that tragic moment. The past seven years have been a mixture of some of the darkest hours of my life as well as the brightest.  From anger and depression to joy and triumph and everything

Winning the Battle with Fibromyalgia – How I was Healed! (pt 1)

Continued from Winning the Battle with Fibromyalgia – My Story     3 Parts to Freedom From Fibromyalgia    1. Physical   If you struggle with fibromyalgia, start doing what you can in the physical immediately!  This is the easiest one to attack because it simply involves adding in high powered-nutrients that will combat the stress, fatigue, and pain.   The other two parts may take more time to work through, so my philosophy was,

Hope Restored in Tragedy

As Hosea’s 3rd birthday is approaching in a couple days, I feel like talking about his life.   Nathan and I had two beautiful little girls–Micaiah Joy (2 yrs.) and Eden Grace (16 mo.)–when our third child, Hosea Nathan, was born.  He was born perfectly healthy and the joy of our home!  We were ecstatic about having a little man to add to our growing crew.  We had 3 kids under the age of 3, which was absolutely crazy, but so much fun! Four weeks later, on